Survey under the cut...


( Are you afraid to live?  )

I have been away for far too long. Below is my little update. Ha, like anyone cares. But i figure I'll post it anyway. =)


( Bullet Proof loneliness, at best. )

After far too long I've finally gotten my internet turned back on!!!
Not many, if any, read this so I'm sure nobody really cares. BUT! I'm back!!!!!!

My sad and pitiful existance will be even more sad and pitiful for the two or so weeks that I don't have a computer. Keep writing fic for me to come back to though, it'll be sure to cheer me up =]

UPDATE POSTTTTTTTT!
I am excited, aren't you?!

most of this will be under cut because it's long and rambling and pointless. Read at your own risk.

 

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Who on here is still oldschool enough to have a myspace?????
Add me, yeah?
www.Myspace.com/So_out_of_my_league



Night Night

 

I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!!

I Auditioned for Choral Ensemble for next Term. I made it guys!!!!!!!!!!! I was so nervous, I really can't stand singing in front of other people but you know what? I did really well, especially for how nervous I was.

The thing is...I am a smoker. A nasty, smelly, cough-y, cigarette/weed SMOKER! And it's bad. And it's fucking with my voice.

I want to be a performer some day and smoking is really gonna mess it all up if I don't get a handle on it while I'm still young.

So encourage me guys, help me quit! I want to quit so bad and I know it's not going to be easy because I'm already "addicted" and smoking is one of the few things I do that keeps me from breaking down all the fucking time. Please help encourage me to quit!

I love you all, F-list. You guys make shitty days bearable and Good days soooooo much better.

-TeraRose.

<3333

I'm jumping on the bandwagon.


( Sex Mem )

First: A mem...


put your player on shuffle.
the first line of the first 20 songs is a poem.
the 21st song is the title.


"I've Never Felt Nothin' in the World Like This Before..."

How do you want it?
Oh I've been travelin' on this road so long
Today I'm gonna run away
She's wearing dresses on the border line
Shhhhh quiet you might piss somebody off
Brothers and sisters put this record down
As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
Boy I've been watching you
Lying in bed, trying to stay quiet
This here's a story...
Feeling sorrow for all the things you had to steal and borrow
The way that you're walkin'
We've all seen the man at the liquer store
We reassure you the procedure is safe and routine
Can't somebody explain to me?
I know a thing about contusions ('cause I've got enough to spare)
Now that she's back in the atmosphere...
Pump it up
I am so high I can hear heaven
I just wanna be alone to night...








So I got my first tattoo tonight! I'm fuckin' stoked. No joke. Wanna see?

I stole the idea for this from Colin and livinglifeloud. It seems like a good way to get things off your chest even if the people they're meant for will never read them (on my part at least). Feel free to read and ask if you want, idk. Yeah.


( Ten Things I Wish I Could Say To Ten Different People )

So, Yeah...
I loled in the middle of the public library XD

I don't usually do these but...



Rules:
Put your music player, whatever it may be, on shuffle. The title to whatever song comes next is your answer to the question. Sound fun?

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Helena -MCR

(haha, um, no.)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Tomorrow -Sixx A.M.

(I think this one makes sense=)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
In Pieces -Linkin Park

(Title seems to fit my taste lmao 0.o)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Choke Me -The Used

(um. Okay...)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
The Way I Am -Eminem

(Fo' Real!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
The Unforgiven II by Metallica

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
MIA by Avenged Sevenfold.

WHAT IS 2+2?
4 Words To Choke Upon by Bullet for my Valentine lml >_< lml

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Sugar We're Going Down -Fall Out Boy

(haha, yes! just...yes.XD)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Only You -Ashanti

(XD)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Leave out All The Rest -Linkin Park

(Yes.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
The World Has It's Shine -Cobra Starship

(In Love)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Poison -Bullet For My Valentine

(haha, nice)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Nosferatu Does A Hefty Dance -Pinkly Smooth

(Hahahahahaha)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Cat And Mouse  -The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

(I love that song too XD)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Given Up -Linkin Park

(XD, Hell Yeah)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Walking Into Spider Webs -No Doubt

(Hells yeah)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Down And Out   -The Academy Is...

(wow...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Teenagers  -My Chemical Romance

(Wow, so fucking true!)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off  -Panic

(Wow...that one works too...)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Victems Of Love  -Good Charlotte

(uh...no comment...)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Burried Myself Alive   -The Used

(too fuckin' true)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Crazy In Love -Beyonce


WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Bring Me To life  -Evanescence

(ehh, not really, no)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Nobody  -Akon

(yeah, true true,)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
It's Not My Time  -Three Doors Down

(nahhh)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Over and Over -Usher/Tim McGraw

(I guess that's a...yes?)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
She's A Handsome Woman  -Panic

(sure, I guess 0.o)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Dance Floor Anthem

(It doesn't hurt anymore tho...)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
On My Own Time  -Gym Class Heroes

Title:  Seize The Day
Author: </a></b></a>wtfxslutface 
Rating: PG-13 ish for language
Pairing: a bit of Bratt
Story Summary: AU. Ever wonder what happened to Matt and His son after the cemetery scene in Seize The Day? This is a story about the son, Nicky and how is life changes as he grows up. The friends and enemies he makes on the way, and the relationships he forages.
Chapter Summary: Nicky's scared that his dads wont love him anymore. Mostly emo!Nick and Savior!Jay
Disclaimer: I don't own any recognized people, only the fictitious ones. Storyline taken from The "Seize The Day" Video. Title taken from the A7X song. I mean no harm by this, it is only a work of my (overactive) imagination.
Word Count: 2,274
Author's Notes: K, so I know I was going on and on about other stories, but this has been in my head for a long time, and I finally said Fuck-it and started to write it. Hope you like. Comments are looooove.

( The Year They Want A Baby )

Title:  Seize The Day
Author: wtfxslutface 
Rating: PGish maybe even G
Pairing: Hints at Bratt
Story Summary: AU. Ever wonder what happened to Matt and His son after the cemetary scene in Seize The Day? This is a story about the son, Nicky and how is life changes as he grows up. The friends and enemies he makes on the way, and the relationships he forages.
Chapter Summary: Kindergarten. The meaning of the word "gay". And Playground Rules.
Disclaimer: I don't own any recignized people, only the fictitious ones. Storyline taken from The "Seize The Day" Video. Title taken from the A7X song. I mean no harm by this, it is only a work of my (overactive) imagination.
Word Count: 1,630
Author's Notes: K, so I know I was going on and on about other stories, but this has been in my head for a long time, and I finally said Fuck-it and started to write it. Hope you like. Comments are looooove.

( Playground Rules )

I need inspiration. This is retarded. No joke I feel like I'm going insane. Actually, I'm kind of okay for a change. I mean, I'm never totally okay, there's always gotta be something that could drag me down if I let it, but I'm not going to right now. I passed my first DE test. I get my fuckin' permit tomorrow. I'm excited. My best friend in the world is finally home. hopefully for a while this time. This whole In-and-out of Juvie is gonna kill me one day. Hopefully he's learned his lesson. I missed him too much. I have a really good plotline in my head for a story about Tom Kaulitz. (Yes, I'm a total TH whore now, thank Kels and the teenies who hang out in the library at lunch, it's all their fault!). IDK though. I started to kindof write it, but it would be completely awesome if someone needed a prompt and wrote it for me *hint hint*. Ask for deets. I may post what I have of the prologue later on, I'll go from there... I'm having sever block when it comes to my A7X story. Which sucks because I really wanted to write it. I think I may just leave it as a teensy one-shot. We'll see.

Snippet from a hella old drabble that I started and never got around to doing anything with:

    His hand wrapped around mine. His long, bony fingers felt rough against my skin. I smiled. I really did love his hands. The way you could almost see the skelital structure with the naked eye. The calloused fingers entertwined with mine, his abnormally skinny thumb brushing my knuckle gently. He had this habit, he could be anywhere, doing anything, and one of his hands would be tapping out the rhythm to the song in his head. Right now the hand that wasn't wrapped around mine, was resting on my hip, tapping out the beat to a slow song. No, it wasn't the song we were dancing to. Because we weren't dancing to music. Just two teenagers in puppy love, dancing in a dark parking lot, to no music.
    My head came to rest on his shoulder and I sighed almost contentedly. "I love you Gerard," I whisper softly, stroking the tiny hairs at the nape of his neck. His tapping stopped and his grip on my waist tightened, I smiled.
    "I love you too Billy, So much!"

Haha. IDK anymore. I'm just gonna let this semi-okay mood have it's rotten way with me because if I dwell on all the other SHIT then it'll just bring me down. I really don't feel like being down right now. Okay. I'm done. NightyNight.

Title: It's Empty and Cold Without You Here...
Author: wtfxslutface 
Rating: PG/PG-13
Pairing: None as of yet, Past Val/Matt, implied Syn/Vengeance
POV: Jimmy's
Summary: Val's Dead.
Word Count: 508
Disclaimer: I do not own the members of Avenged, Or The Barrys, Or The Dibenidetto Sisters. No harm meant, purely an excercise of my creativity and a product of my over imagination. The title is from Seize The Day by A7X
Author Notes: Sad. Probably one of the saddest things I've written and this is just the prolouge (unless you don't like Val, which I can't imagine, but if that's the case then you'll probably love this) IDK if I'm going to continue with this, it will depend on the feedback. If I do continue, the slash will become very prominent, for sure with Brian/Zack, maybe Matt/?

( Prolouge )

Title: It's Empty and Cold Without You Here...
Author: wtfxslutface 
Rating: PG/PG-13
Pairing: None as of yet, Past Val/Matt, implied Syn/Vengeance
POV: Jimmy's
Summary: Val's Dead.
Word Count: 508
Disclaimer: I do not own the members of Avenged, Or The Barrys, Or The Dibenidetto Sisters. No harm meant, purely an excercise of my creativity and a product of my over imagination. The title is from Seize The Day by A7X
Author Notes: Sad. Probably one of the saddest things I've written and this is just the prolouge (unless you don't like Val, which I can't imagine, but if that's the case then you'll probably love this) IDK if I'm going to continue with this, it will depend on the feedback.


( Prolouge )

OK
I'm  listening to After The Last Midtown Show on repeat and I think I've fallen in love all over again. I cannot believe I didn't get this CD earlier. Tonight has been the best night, New CDs (TAI and Cobra Starship =P) smokes and the house to myself. These nights right here are the ones I live for. With music as good as this, it's like my world melts away. All my troubles disappear. A smile (genuine) plants it's self on my face and I can finally breath without the oppression of reality weighing monumentally on my shoulders. I feel happier than I have in a long time. And I'm actually thinking about trying to write fic again! Hopefully my Writers block has subsided.
Sidenote: For those of you who smoke, you've GOT to try Camel Crush, They are the shit!.
OK. I'm done for now. But on a night like this, it's unlikely that this will be my last post!

That's right
I'm going home
Once again this post will be mostly under cut considering I know most of you on my f-list don't want to read about my bullshit.

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To all those lovely people who I usually comment because they're brilliant and I love their work...

I HAVE NO COMPUTER   *GASP*

Yes, that is right, NO computer. I'm currently sitting in Oceanography class and typing this up because I finished my project early.
Don't worry, I remember you all, but I'm sorry to say that for a while the comments will be few and far between.

Keep writing!